bbq woes

[melissarene]

I am completely against huge buffet/bbq type events, because I'm always afraid that I'll get food poisoning from it being out too long, or that I'll catch an SV because someone preparing it or partaking in it has one, too. But I usually am more worried about this during flu season.


Sometimes I wish i worried about it all of the time.


We went to a bbq tonight and ate burgers (which I have a feeling were slightly undercooked...a little pink), potato chips, dips (which everyone was eating out of), as well as veggies, and some weird pasta salad. Antipasto, maybe?? I think most of the dips were sour cream based. I also drank diet Coke (which has aspartame). All of these things could potentially make me sick to my stomach. Of course, as I was partaking in these items that never crossed my mind.


Now, I'm sitting here with a tummy that's feeling all funny and gurgly and a little bit upset, too. I feel kind of crappy. And I am deathly afraid that I'm going to get food poisoning. It's 3 am here and I hope that someone out there is up to listen to me...

[daffodil]

I'm here. How long ago did you eat?

[melissarene]

We ate after 8pm tonight.


I forgot to mention one other thing, too...I may naturally feel upset to my tummy because I'm just going off Lexapro on top of it all. I'm super anxious on top of not feeling well. Making everything worse!

[melissarene]

I'm so hypersensitive to every little noise that my body makes. I don't know why I'm so sensitive to it tonight, but the gurgling makes me ill.

[daffodil]

Going off meds can be rough on your body and mind. I've been there.
Do you have any ginger, or some tea?

[daffodil]

I know... I hate it... When you get in a panic, all the little things seem so big... Can you open a window for some fresh air?
How is your man feeling?Edited by: daffodil

[melissarene]

He appears to be feeling fine, but I don't know. He's sleeping now and I am afraid to wake him up to ask.


My biggest fear right now is falling asleep. I fear that I will suddenly wake up in the middle of the night only to not make it to the bathroom in time and will v*. I'm so frustrated at myself. For the last month or so I have not had any of these fearful attacks...


I have some ginger that I have taken and hopefully this will calm my stomach down. Then again, I know it's a reality that our stomach's do a lot of work in digestion. My other thought was that maybe my body does this while I'm sleeping any other night, I just don't know it...Another thing could be the fact that I have worked to eat a lot healthier lately. I slipped up tonight by eating greasier things I'm used to....

[daffodil]

That is a good possibility, that you just had some stuff you are not used to anymore.
Maybe watching some tv, or taking a bath or reading would help to take your mind off things while you wait for your stomach to settle. Or you can keep chatting with me. I'm a night owl.[img]smileys/smilies_01.gif[/img]

[melissarene]

I'm not much of a night owl these days. I used to be when my panic attacks were much worse and my fear of the dreaded sv took over my life. I am trying to improve things my trying to eat right and exercise regularly. I became a rebel over the last few weeks and decided to go on a medication holiday. Of course, without the doctor's permission, but I was tired of medicine. I hated the side effects -- and on top of it, I can't get into the psychiatrist until JUNE 9!! AUGH. I hadto do something. Now all of my worst fears have come rushing back...Any time my stomach makes an off sound of feeling, it puts me on high alert and causes me to lose a great deal of sleep. Like tonight. I can NOT believe I'm still up...

[daffodil]

I went off my meds last December without talking to my doctor, and now I regret it. I am probably going to go back on. I have an appointment in a few days. Not to say that you were wrong to go off yours. We all have to make those decisions for ourselves, not based on what anyone else thinks. It can make you feel really wierd to go off them, though.
Isn't it silly how long it takes to get in to the doctor? I sometimes think they don't take things very seriously where mental health is concerned.
I hope you feel better! [img]smileys/smilies_01.gif[/img] Edited by: daffodil

[melissarene]

daffodil -


I went to bed not long after my last message. I was only having a crazy panic attack I guess.Now I'm just tired this morning. I have gone off medication before so I do know what to expect...My problem is that I rarely have panic attacks on a daily basis anymore and would really like to have a med that I only take as needed. My counselor has talked to me about klonopin, because it is supposed to be less addictive than xanax. We shall see what the doctor says...

[daffodil]

Good luck with getting on the right med. It an be a pain, but if you find a good one that works for you, it can make such a difference.[img]smileys/smilies_01.gif[/img]