Well, I made it through a sv*

[silver]

There has been a terrible sv* going around here for the past month or so...some v* only, some v* and d*, and some just bad d*. It started Sunday night for me and went all day yesterday...just severe d*. When I first felt it coming on, I thought that I was definately going to v* too. Surprisingly, I was pretty calm about it, I didn't feel anxious, I just felt so sick that I didn't care if I v* or not. Really surprising for someone that has literally paced all night before to keep it from happening. I came back to work today because I can't afford to miss, but am feeling extremely week and tired. Last night I didn't sleep well as my entire body was sore. Also, on Saturday, I was around my friend who has been sick v* on and off for a month!! ( we think that she has an ulcer or something.) I was around her and I didn't feel nervous at all. I think that I am getting better with this fear and proud of myself for not freaking out yesterday while I was going through it.

[tiffanator]

Sorry you were sick silver, but great job making it through without a lot of anxiety! That is definetly a bit step in the recovery process and you've done it. Also good job hanging out with your friend. I hope she finds out what is wrong with her so that doesn't continue.

[suze]

Well done Silver. Sorry you had to go through it but it's great news that you coped without a real panic. I really hope this is a turning point for you.

[dreamer]

Yes, well done for coping so well. I know I wouldn't have been able to. Even the d* would have panicked me, I've never had an sv* where d* wasn't followed by v*ing.


Glad you came though it ok!

[silver]

I feel like I am on my way to getting better. I just was determined in my head not to freak out about it. The other part of it is that I am finally let sink in is that: As long as I practice good hygeine, etc. it is something that really doesn't happen all that often. Its not worth my time worrying about if and when it is going to happen. Yesterday proved all of this to me...although it was really unpleasant and I feel really weak and kind of dehydrated right now...I am actually glad that I had the exerience to see that it is not that bad in perspective to other things in life. I am tired of fearing something that I cannot control and I refuse to do it any longer.

[tanyarn]

I'm proud you pulled through silver. I had the sv* last year and I too only had d*. As I was laying there all I could remember was just being pissed that I felt horrible. I don't really fear it when I have it, or maybe last year I didn't because I didn't even feel n* so I knew I wasn't going to v*, but I just got through it. You feel soo bad that you just want to feel better.However, The year beofre I had gotten it and was soo sick, I needed to v* soo bad that I fought with everything I had and I didn't. I was worried then, so under the circumstances, its different on how I feel when I have it. Glad you feel good about it though.


My emets going to come out now. Whereabouts in the U.S do you live? lol

[silver]

Tayna-


Don't worry, I don't live anywhere near you...I live in the southwest and we always get hit every year around this time from April through May.

[surfjunkie]

Silver-You are an inspiration to me. The stuff you said about using good
hygiene and the fact that it doesn't happen very often hit me smack dab
in the middle of the head! It is a very realistic way of looking at it.

Thanks for the enlightenment! I will refer to it often!!!

[silver]

I am trying to take this experience and make it good...yes I was unacomfortable, yes, I still feel crummy, but I know that it doesn't happen very often and I DID live through it. I told myself that I wasn't going to be anxious about it and I wasn't. It goes to show how the power of positive though can be so powerful with things like this. My hope is that I can keep feeding these positive thoughts into my head each day and reinforce this new message. I think back to all of the times that sv* were going around and I stressed and worried for no reason. It makes me want to cry to think of all of the time that I wasted for no reason. I don't know about being an inspiration...but I am actually GLAD that it happened because I have been stressing sooo much about it lately. Now I can move on from here and start making some good steps towards progress. I feel like I have been so exposed to all of it lately that it all built up and the exposure actaully has helped me. Maybe I needed to get to my absolute witts-end with all of this to make it better....

[marieb73]

Congrats on remaining calm. There's a little sv going around here in L.A. and I am already pacing. Where are you?

[silver]

Don't worry guys...I am in New Mexico and I haven't come across anyone on this board even in the same state...