a blast from the past...

[melissarene]

I was thinking back to about 13 years ago when I first began showingsigns of having an anxiety disorder...It was the summer before my 6th grade year...I constantly felt tired, and super sick to my stomach. The time I had v* previously to this was at school near the end of my 5th grade school year (hot, almost summer!!)and I was constantly afraid of reliving that experience.


The next time I v*, at age 19, it was again hot and near the summer.


Then in 2003, I had the nigthmare experience gain where I was super sick to my stomach and terrified of leaving the house, having anxiety attacks all the time.


Today was the hottest day of the year so far here in Michigan. Temperatures in the 90s. Whenver it gets this hot, I get so freaked out...and get deathly afraid that I'll relive all of those expereiences all over again. And that's what makes it hard...You get so scared and it makes the situation worse...

[japa]

Having those bad sickness memories definitely sucks.


Of course, the weather triggering the memory like that is sort of relative because I grew up in Florida and now I live in Houston, so the thought of it NOT being near 90 deg Fahrenheit is a strange one to me. lol

[SimplyMe]

I'm sorry Melissa. It's so easy to fall into that thought pattern. But I'm guessing if 6th grade was 13 years ago you are probably about 24/25? So, try and look at all the years you DIDN'T get sick right before summer. I know it's easy for me to say and I do the same sorts of things. It seems to be aconstant battle between logic and fear. Anyhow I hope this helps you.


Japa, I know what you mean. (Native Floridian LOL!)

[melissarene]

Yeah, I will be 24 next Monday. I know, logically, that there is nothing to fear and I don't even know why I think about some of this stuff. It's very frustrating and can make summer very unfun for me. Another thing that gets me going about summer and my anxiety, n*, etc, is that my body doesn't do very well walking around in the hot summer sun and then spending time in the A/C and then back out again. Shocks the system a little bit and that can be about as frustrating....My grandmother has the same problem and so does my mom. I'm sure tons of people do. I wish I could just get it out of my head so I could enjoy the weather like everyone else!

[crystalmom]

I totally know how you feel. When I was little I would fear Saturday nights. It always seemed that if I caught a bug, it would be on a Saturday night. Now, flu season bothers me, although out of the last three bugs I have had were not during flu season.


I have been especially anxious, only b/c I had a sv June 6th, 2002. So....it is nearing that time. Very anxious. You are not the only one. But, remember all the times you WERE NOT sick during a hot streak. Try to keep cool, maybe that will help.


Hope we all feel better, and stronger soon.


Crystal

[melissarene]

Doing that. I've spent all afternoon, evening, etc indoors. Told the boyfriend that we HAD to turn on the a/c. Could not stand the heat any longer. Headaches, upset tummy that often leads to d*. I can't stand what it does to me. See, I'm a big fan of the winter coolness, regardless of sv and flu season. When I'm having an anxiety attack, I can escape to the outdoors and it's cool and refreshing. In the summer, my only choice usually is to hop in a cool shower...