I'm traveling to New York City on Thursday. I live in PA and it is a 4 hour bus ride from here. I'm taking a bus up early in the morning and my mother and I are spending two days there, supposedly having fun. Thankfully, I don't get motion sick so that doesn't scare me, but I am scared of developing some sv* while on the bus, or having other people get sick somehow. Now, I am being a complete idiot since I have made this trip 3 times before with NO problems.

I'm also scared about having to eat up there and then go out, and doing all sorts of things. I really wish I could just enjoy my vacation like a normal human being. On top of all that anxiety, I am due for my period RIGHT on the day I am leaving. The only thing giving me hope in that regard is that I haven't had any PMS symptoms yet and think that I would've, but that all makes me nervous since I get so n* with periods.

Ugh...the one thing that comforts me right now is that we can cancel the hotel reservations up to a day before we go, and also that my mother really isn't putting pressure on me to go since she hates NY. I know I will end up going though. I am much too stubborn and even if I feel like absolute crap, I will force myself to go.