I went to meet my new counsellor earlier & what a pile of horse muck he was! & thats putting it mildly....


I went with an open mind, thinking he could possibly listen to me & suggest something to help me get rid of the anxiety without the aid of meds *i'd rather do it naturally* but NO! he didn't listen to me.. just spoke over me & made me feel like a freak & made me cry!


He asked me what v* was? So I replied 'A bodily function that isn't very nice' So he asked me why it wasn't very nice. So I told him because I just don't like the thought of catching anything or seeing it, hearing itor smelling it. He replied in a patronising tonewith, 'Nobody likes it Kirstie' & so it went on.. himtelling me it IS ok for it to happen & is nothing to fear.Doh! I KNOW that but justcan't stop the fear!!!


He says I have to change my pattern of thinking & gaveme the ABC rule to try follow.. This being..


A. The situation or issue on my mind


B. What my mind is saying about it


C. How I end up feeling i.e anxious


He says i'm using the wrong things to represent B. I am thinking v*shouldn't happen & I mustn't go near it in case I catch it. ApparentlyI need to think 'I'm not really liking this situation but it can't be helped'The italic words are apparently the wrong thing to think & should be changed. When I have an anxious moment I have been told to backtrack & think what word has made me feel like that & change it.. i.e this shouldn't be happening..I mean HELLO? Does anyone ever do that!!? [img]smileys/smilies_07.gif[/img]


I really didn't understand ANYTHING he wanted me to do over the next two weeks & I feltlike I was back in nursery with the way he spoke down to me & feel 10x worse nowi've been to see him & feel like theres really no way out of this.. [img]smileys/smilies_06.gif[/img]


If I could have only found the agression to speak OVER HIMto get my feelings out then maybe I would have felt better about going again to see him.. [img]smileys/smilies_12.gif[/img]