i have this 'complex' where if i'm not perfect, not THE BEST ... i want
to kill myself. if i mess up at work, i want to quit. if i don't get an a on
the test, i want to throw it all away and quit school. like it's either all
or nothing.
and now my boyfriend's gotten a job (i was the only one working up
to this point). he works more hours. this is a really good thing for
him, and i should be happy, but i am SO PISSED. i base my self
worth off of 'being better' than other people rather than just being
the best me i can be. but the perfectionism ... is that an ocd
symptom?