I am useless

[Hale]

As you know I work in a school. Well at the end of the day one of the children was sick in the line to go home. I was standing about 1/2 metre away from him and smelt it. I told the teacher as she was at the front of the line that walked past her to go to the staff room. She came in to get some cleaning things and was realy nice. She said 'keep away' which was exactly what I intended to do. I then realised if she was cleaning up the child was probably in the toilet on his own so i went outside to get his Mum but as I followed her in i heaved so i ran to the loos. Nothing came up but i took one of my anti-emetics to stop the gagging.I hate taking the tablets since i got pregnant but I am just weak and gave in. I then went to check to see if all the kids had been dismissed. The school secretary was waiting with the last few but the little boy who i work with had gone out on hos own because I was being pathetic. His nan was waiting for him but his Mums friend said its a good job his mum wasn't here so I think she will be angry with me tomorrow. I then got in the car and drove home without speaking to anybody else. It was the end of the day but I just wanted to go home. I rang my husband and explained and he said he would leave work early and would see me when i got home. He got there before me and had got me some clean clothes as he knew I would feel contaminated. He is brilliant and I am crap. I have tried to phone the school to apologise to the teacher but the phone is engaged.I am dreading work tomorrow in case I am in trouble (they all know but I don't think they realise how bad my emet is) and I am worrried more of te kids will get it. Do you think I will catch it as i was so close and I smelt it? I think that is the only time you can breathe it in when you are close to a person when they v* as particles are in the air. I am going to be a bad mother. I can't even look after myself when i feel sick let alone a child. Edited by: Hale

[curly wurly]

Sorry you have had such a bad day. You are not useless and you will be a brilliant mum. You can not help how you felt when the little boy v*d. Hopefully the little boy did not have a sv. I hope tomorrow goes better for you and that you feel better soon.

[Hale]

Thank you for the reply. We have one child off ill who we don't know what is wrong with but noone else in the class has had it and his mum seemed surprised that he had been sick so I don't think she knew of anyone that has had a bug. I really hope it is not contagious.

[jodi054]

i hope all is well tomorrow at school ... you'll be a fantastic mum [img]smileys/smilies_01.gif[/img]

[cloughie]

No one is perfect not even the other teacher. Just because you couldn't help with one thing doesn't make you useless. What about all the other things you can do. I think you do a very useful job.

[dreamer]

Don't be so hard on yourself. You're pregnant, and pregnant women are notoriously queasy! No-one's going to judge you and I don't think you have anything to apologise for. You will be a great mum - believe me, it's different when it's your own child. Hope you're ok tomorrow.

[californiagirl]

You couldn't help how you reacted. Surely you didn't mean any harm, and you also couldn't help but to go to the restroom when you started gagging. Please don't be so hard on yourself. You will be a wonderful mother and you have a very nice and understanding husband.

[japa]

Oh goodness! You're criticizing yourself for nothing, and I can't for the life of me imagine how you could get in trouble for this. You're pregnant, and you can just say that you ran off because you were going to be sick too. The only problem I can perceive here is that you are being too hard on yourself.

[Hale]

Thanks everyone. I am my own worst enemy I know. I just hate it when people see me in a mess and I feel so sick now because I can't stop thinking about it. That makes me feel like I am going to gag so I panic. It's all a vicious circle and its bad enough at the best of times but I can't do some of my usual relaxing things like put lavender oil in my bath because I am pregnant.I really hope if it is a bug I don't catch it because I just don't think I could cope.

[alwaysamber]

Ahh Hale I know how you feel. First I want to applaud you on being able to work in a school. That couldn't be easy while pregnant and being emet. My anxiety has worsened so much while pregnant that I couldn't even work if I tried so pat your back for that. I bet you gagged because of the pregnancy. I feel I can gag so much easier since being pregnant and I HATE it. I hope it goes away when this baby comes out. For me feeling so gaggy is awful. It has started a paranoia for me. I bet you will be fine. When you are pregnant I believe you have a much stronger immune systems. I like to thank the prenatal vitamins. So have faith in that. Don't worry about taking an anti-emetic either. Some are perfectly fine to take while pregnant like Phennogran also benedryl. Not sure what you take...you will not be a bad mother at all. I often wonder how I will cope. I am fine with baby spit up but am very scared about when it is older and gets sick. Not sure how I will cope but I hope I do better then I would think. Hope this helps some.

Amber
p.s. how far along are you again?

[Hale]

Thanks Amber. We can all support each other. their are some wonderful Mums on her that will give us advise. I am 14 weeks gone but it is really dragging. I have hated every moment except for my scan.

[SimplyMe]

Aww, Hale, you'll be a great mommy! Your hormones are wild right now so cut yourself some slack. Just my period makes me more antsy and anxious and soemtiems nauseous I can't imagin pregnant and seeing a kid do it. You did very well and you will be a wonderful mom!

[Jenneh]

Hale... the fact you even work ina school is the reason WHY you are going to be a great mum!! You obviously adore kids & can handle them.. which helps when being a mother


No one is perfect in everything they do & the fact your phobia caused you to act in a way you didn't want... is not your fault & is not a representation of who you are as a person. you're there for the kids in every other scenario!


Jen x

[Hale]

Thanks simply me and jenneh - it's great to see you on the boards again.