do i belong here?

[strangesage]

I have been reading about emetophobi andothers' posts about their struggles with emetophobia, and i find that althought i do fear being sick and vomitting, i don't seem to have an extreme fear of it. I can see someone get sick and be fine. I can watch movies and someone will get sick, and I'm fine. For me, I have somehow made the most screwed up link that eating will make me sick. This gets triggered when I get a stomach virus and am throwing up a lot. For the last month and a half, eating has been such a struggle for me. My body starts to go through the physiological signs of anxiety, and sometimes I throw up during or after I eat..and other times, I can get sick and throw up just thinking about it. I really want to re-train my brain and it is SO hard. I feel desperate and helpless and I just want to be able to enjoy food and eat without freaking out about it. I will dread whenever I have to eat, and put it off at times until late at night, after I've taken my meds and am more relaxed and sleepy. I take Remeron and Klonopin to help with the anxiety.


So...I guess my question is...am I in the right place here? Yes, I fear getting sick and throwing up, but I also don't feel like I will die if I get sick. I have gotten sick so much in the past month that I realize throwing up isn't the end of the world. I just start to obsess that I am not getting enough nutrition and that is what freaks me out. Iknow that I am not getting enough and I have lost a lot of weight since thisstarted.It freaks me out.


This cycle is ridiculous and I am scared.


Thank you for reading/listening...


~Strange SageEdited by: strangesage

[confusedgirl]

yeah, sure you belong here! there are people on this site with really severe emet, and people who are cured! Sorry you're having such a difficult time eating v_v I wish I knew how to help, but I don't... maybe try taking a vitamin, that could help with the nutrition? other people on the site can probably give you more helpful advice though. but welcome to the site!

[spilled_milk]

You belong here! There are many different degrees of emet. Also, some people fear others, some people fear only themselves, and some people fear both.


<3 Anya--

[blondie90]

yep, you belong here! similar to you, i have no problem seeing it in person or in movies, but i freak when i'm exposed to someone who's contagious and i may catch their stomach bug. everybody's emet varies. this site will help you no matter what!