Hello. It seems to me you have a giod heart but what yiu did on chat was very very very damaging We are here because most if us would have a limb amputated never to have to deal with v again. I think you could begin again, even a new name and NEVER do/say/show anything disturbing or rude again I am just new here and am si desparate for support I would do ANYTHING to be a part of this forum. Good luck and just think before you post. X