wow so nice, so nice to see that people care</font>

It is an addiction, and we just keep giving into it...</font>

Thanks Josie and Chibi, you are right... this stupid phobia really takes charge when everything else is going badly for you.



Miriam

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I dunno, I guess because of all of the stress and
everything and just feeling so down about life and myself, everything
in general. But my husband is off of work today and my parents offered
to...

Never heard that one before. Interesting though</font>

Thanks... I'm not really nauseous anymore but feel sick
in other ways, what I mean is emotionally... I really feel like I am
not sure if I can trust anyone anymore. I was so good to this person...

Well I certainly know what stress does to you... and hey you know my situation too right?</font>

borderline personality disorder...I would rather not go
into detail about it right now, I am starting to feel a little better
nausea wise but still crappy in every other way. Well I'm sorry but if...

Sorry I worded that badly... he didnt exactly say
literally that I am a fruitcake... he did speak the truth, about the
borderline dx and hearing the truth does hurt. I feel awful but I'll
deal...

This is getting even better. Even though I am not overly
phobic of myself being sick, I am really nervous now. I am nauseous,
really nauseous and DONT want it to happen. It probably won't and I'll...

I personally dont think anyone can really get over this
phobia but you can learn to live with it without it ruling your life.
It doesnt matter how severely or in what way it affects you whether you...

And thanks for saying I am a good person. Unfortunately
those people only see me as an evil compulsive liar with hidden
agendas, dont ask... but I'm really having a bad time right now</font>

I'm sorry you are going through this, you sure dont
deserve it... but like everyone said you are not worthless and all of
this, and definitely not selfish. Because I am also down in the dumps
at...

Thanks, Galadriel and Jo, I just cant believe that she
would do this to me. I am still really hurt right now, and just super
depressed... Other than my kids, I seriously feel like I have nothing...

You are right but it still hurts that I cant really
trust anyone... I'm scared to give anything of myself now because of
knowing that I could get stabbed in the back. Whatever, life really can
be...

Envious or not, I think that was EXTREMELY tactless of
her to do that. No one wants to hear that kind of announcement, emet or
not!</font>

Well right now I am feeling horrible. To be honest, if I
didnt have my kids I would have killed myself, seriously...I'm only
going on for them... I'm so tired of this. I'm so tired of being...

Thanks Abbey and Galadriel. It could also be the blues
setting in after all of the hype. Sometimes I just feel awful though,
and there are other reasons behind this right now. I am friends with...

I know I should be happy, and off to a better start and
its a new year and all but... I am more depressed than ever. Sometimes
I wonder if I should even bother going on at times... really, I'm not...

I am the same way, in fact I am horribly phobic of
others being sick but as far as myself goes, maybe a little more than
the average nonemet but a lot less so than the average emet fearing...

same to you, I dunno I am awfully depressed</font>

I've been feeling crappy too.. and sometimes I feel like
no one just gives a damn about me, I dont know. I'm really depressed
too.



Miriam

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My daughter was a terrible spitter. The funny thing is,
once she stopped spitting up, she really stopped. She v'ed a few times
as a baby but it for some reason didnt bother me terribly either....

I finally figured out how to work that, disregard this one

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