Self fulfilling prophecies?

[ripper bait]

Hey there. Sometimes i really think that i'm not allowed of happiness. Did you ever have days when you're perfectly released from nausea, anxiety and emetophobia? No matter where you go and what you do, everythings fine. You can eat perfectly without even a stomach grumble, you can watch TV stuff with v* scenes and just smile about it and you think "I don't care aboutwhat stuff i touch during the day- i won't get a stomach bug, because it's against all logic!" And then at the end of the day you sit down on your couch and think: Yay! This was a perfect day! I felt completely NORMAL! .... And then you go to bed and wake up in the middle of the night, feeling totally over-nauseated. Of course that had to come! It's always the same. Don't ever think that you feel emet-released for damn12 hours and it will hit you harder than ever. It's like someonejust loves to trick you. I hate that!!


Even when you realise that most ofthe nausea is caused by anxiety, it's not possible to get rid of it.Even whenI feel completely anxiety-free,my tummy acts like a roller coaster.Though i learnedto ignore the nausea,it's still there. But why? Even THAT is against all logic. If this nausea is caused by anxiety, then it must go away wheni'm not anxious! Why does it stay?I hate it!I just hate it.


...sorry foryapping random stuff,buti'm so upset! I could kill my stomach [img]smileys/smilies_06.gif[/img]

[Babydoll]

i know how you feel, but you have to remember that youhave more days than bad, and try to cherish them as much as you can.

[izzybee]

Its great to have non-emet days. Unfortunalty they never stay like that, but its nice to have a break from emet! I really dont understand nausia if you arnt anxious. I get this soemtimes, but it might be that we are stopping the physical signals of anxiety but its still going on in our mind.

[Jenneh]

even tho you think u might be having non-emet days.. i bet the anxiety is still there...


its better to just not think about it AT ALL... not think "oh, im having a good day emet wise" or not sit and watch TV progs and go "im nt scared of this nemore" cause ur constantly reminding urself that ur SUPPOSED to be anxious...


i know its hard.. its smthing iv had to teach myself to do .. but its worked!


if you wake up feeling really nauseated its probably because deep down in ur un-concious you are still worried about it, even if its not to thre fore-front of ur mind.


Jen xxxxxxxx

[cwarren]

Yeah, I het days when I think to myself "If someone was sick in front of me right now I don't think I'd care" and I can see someone coughing in the street and not freak out, but other days all someone has to do is put their hand anywhere near their stomach and I start to panic.


I HATE those days, I just feel SO angry with myself all the time - why can't I just be scared of something normal like heights or snakes?? But no, I have to be scared of something that makes me feel constantly on edge and that ruins my life. And people wonder why I hate myself!! lol


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[siafi]

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We all have a monster inside us, don't we?! Emet is terrrrible, but at least you are having a lot of good half days! ...small comfort though, huh? I hope you start doing better and better!!!</BLOCKQUOTE>

[Galadriel]

Hey!


I totaly hear you about havin the nausea and your like "Im not feelin anxious conciously, why the heck do I feel so sick?" but I think its a subconcious thing going on, because thats the way this beast works! I can sympathize!

[mal86]

Man i totally know what your talking about, i find it incredible though that i am NOT the only one going through this, reading everyones post and seeing what they think about it like wishing they had a normal fear like snakes or etc. makes me feel so much better because i have had those same thoughts.... and honestly just knowing that i am not alone makes me feel a little bit better about myself.

[Jenneh]

thats good mal.. because thats part of the reason why we're here...


cause we're not alone.. and iv started to think that us here, are the only emetophjobes in the world, but of course we're not.. thers LOADS out there.. i mean emetophobia is the 6th most common phobia in the UK!!


hence why im writing this leaflet.. so i can try and help all of them =P


Jen xxxx

[jazz]

yes! non emet days are the greatest, truly. you can eat what you want, you can do whatever you want to do, and yet it seems so short lived!
as my emet seems to have reared its ugly head recently, such days have been almost non-exisistant. I can't wait for the next non-emet day that i can go out and FORGET what i ate for lunch, because i know it doesnt matter.
i actually went through a period of not letting emetophobia affect me for a whole year. it was great, i didn't have bad sleeping patterns, i wasnt fussy with my food, i didn't withdraw myself from social events, i was normal.
i really can sympathise with you though, nausea's a bitch, and so is emet.

[Jenneh]

Jazz, u had an emet free YEAR?!?! wow, thats smthing..


do u thjink u can remember what triggered that year? see if u can get it to repeat itself ?


Jen xxxx

[rachelle]

Jazz,


I was exactly the same;I had about 18months without emet! After a horrid 10months when it really hit home how much I was letting emet rule my life, I pushed and pushed myself into getting rid of the phobia, it worked and I was able to complete my GCSE's and finish my schooling as I had always planned - and gained good results [img]smileys/smilies_02.gif[/img]


BELIEVE me when I say it can be done again. I'm so so so close to getting there again. Just believe u can do it again and u will - its gonna be hard. I'm sure u'll agree it washard last time to be able to fight off emet for the year? Sod the hard work, its bloody worth it.


Rachel xxx

[jazz]

yes i can pinpoint the origin of beating my emet
In the year 2000, I started to feel nauseaus in the evenings after i had a big meal. at the time i didn't relate this to emet, as i was only 10, and it didn't occur to me that i had a phobia.
However, as the nausea progressed, my doctors appointments became more frequent, and i cut down on my meals until eventually i was eating next to nothing.
I had seen 5 doctors and 3 paediatritions to find the route of the nausea. NONE of them even considered emetophobia, although i had the exact same symptoms of an emetophobic- thinking back this really annoys me.
However, by July, I had the same eating traits of an anorexic. I would be eating 2 apples all day, it was really bad!
The nausea persisted, and at the end of it all, the doctor put me on a diet to gain weight. By this time i was really fed up of not having any energy, and feeling pretty grim so i was all for it. In 5 weeks, I gained 3.3 kilos. Wahey! It wasn't easy, I had to eat 3 meals a day, and they had to be substantial. not only that, but as i was eating more, my stomach suffered, and i felt sick an awwful lot throughout that time. Although, at the time..vomiting never bothered me, it was the NAUSEA that bothered me. From then on, entering high school was a piece of cake, and I had an emet-free first year. My nausea had been caused by emetophobia, and yet i had seemd to tackle it.
In year 8, i started to experience nausea again, almost like in 2000, and now my phobia has reached it's head, because i don't even want to go out sometimes.
Sorry to ramble on, but yes, it is possible if you're eating right. I wouldn't say I was " cured "for a year, far from it..the sight of v* completely freaked me out, as it does now. But i was more comfortable with my own eating patterns, and experienced a lot less nausea than i seem to do now.

[jazz]

well done for getting good results rachelle! [img]smileys/smilies_01.gif[/img]

[rhinoseri]

Well, I actually have quite a few days without nausea, but those days I do worry and panic a bit, just no nausea. I guess there are some emet free days, but of course they dont last.

[rachelle]

See jazz, u done it then and u can do it again! I dont think anyone will ever be completely cured (sorry to those who disagree with that) but I am currently able to control my anxiety so that it no longer builds to panic attacks, I do everything normal - 6th form, work, socialising, parties etc etc. And I have it under control, without medication so this is pretty much as far as I think I will be "cured" if u can call it that.


Rachel xxx

[hanarky]

every day is exactly the same to me
I don't eat untill I come home from college come home I eat
pass out wake up around 7 go on the net and go to sleep
around 1.
I hate it I am like an old lady it bugs me soo much! Normal
people do things during the week.. I don't because I need at
least 6 hours notice that I am going out because I am a
dumbass with my rules and regulations of not eating because if
you don't eat you won't puke.
GRRRR!!! [img]smileys/smilies_07.gif[/img]

[ChippedAway]

Guys, just remember that the brain can't process words like "not" and "can't" and "don't" so don't use negatives.... like don't say "I am not nauseous" because you are using that word, which for a lot of us can be a trigger... instead, say "I feel great right now" great is something we process very well


Good luck!

[XoHottieXo27]

heyyy guys its chrissy.. some of you may know me. Actually only a couple of probably do but i used to post like two years ago. Well i had an emet free year and it was amazing. I mean i was still scared to v* but i never ever thought about it which was great. Now i feel like im getting back to my old ways of panicking and im scared since im starting college in a couple of weeks. I have to take the bus everyday into the city. But like all of us i have to be strong because if i can have an emet free year (even tho i was on medication) i can be emet free again w/o any medication. Im going to try and post more cause im miss being part of this lil "family". If anyone ever wants to talk, you can always im me on my aim sn xohottiexo27. Hope everyone is well[img]smileys/smilies_01.gif[/img]

[Jenneh]

Jazz, do you think that maybe, i dunno, dont tke this the wrong way..but the fact ur concentrating on the fact u have a phobia, its kinda disabling you?


i reckon its the sme for quite a lot of us here... we EXPECT to feel out of control because of this phobia, so we make ourselves feel this..


just an idea... no one be angry with me &gt;.&lt;


Jen xxxx

[jazz]

naw, not especially. I feel a bit more comforted knowing that my nausea is caused by a phobia, not something physical but i dont dwell on it too much. Okay actually I do, and it drives me mad.
I can't help it, it's like my worst nightmare, and i blame it for everything..lol

[Melikasa]

I have totally had days like that. I feel great, feel great, feel great. I went to town as a passenger, I ate,all it great.....THEN BAM.
I have to say that I don't think it is the emet though that comes through. It is the emet that makes us worry but I think we all have some kind of stomach problem it seems. (going to make a poll)
I usually think oh man I am paying for having such a good day. Instead of just rolling over and trying to go back to sleep like most people. I (we) lay there and dwell on it.Feeling and hearing everything our stomach and bowels are doing. Turning a grumbly tummy into a nauseated feeling.


Hanarky I was the same way. There was NOOOO way that anyone could say ok lets go out. I would be like "now?!" I wanted enough time to prepare my mind, prepare my bag of (mints, bags, gum, gravol, pepto, ginger ale, water, crackers) I also liked to have enough time to take a gravol and ativan so that they were working by the time I left.
I am a lot better now but for about 10 years I was like that. Before that I didn't know about all the stuff thathelps make nausea go away.