Being tired from ocd

[xroofusx]

I feel so worn out by it right now, im constantly washing my hands after touching anything, its like i use the bathroom, wash my hands and i will only touch the outside of the taps when i turn them off, if my hands touches the tap fully i think there germy, if i touch the soap after washing them, again i will feel unclean. the other night i washed my hands,then my finger brushed against the side of the bathroom tile, and i said to myself i don't need to wash my hands there not dirty its only a tile, so i went back to bed and i couldn't sleep, the only thing that was in my head was my hands feeling dirty, so in the end i gave in and washed them, do you think thats a bit silly and do i really need to wash them again after turning off the tap. Also when i come in from going out shopping or something i change all my clothes[img]smileys/smilies_09.gif[/img], its like if i touch a door handle anywhere and my hands touches my clothes i think there dirty[img]smileys/smilies_12.gif[/img]is that even possible, its not as bad as it used to be, a while back i couldn't stop counting everything thing i did, my steps, how many times i would dry my hands, everything i would constantly count, does anyone else feel worn out if they have it??

Ruth x

[daffodil]

I feel your pain. From the sounds of it, I don't have it as bad as you, but I wash my hands way too much, and usually change, and sometimes shower after being out, especially if it was a doctors appt. I just feel unclean after being out anywhere that a lot of people go, like the grocery store.
Oh, and I drive my husband crazy with it. He just gave the kids some apple, and of course I had to ask him if he washed it first.
It IS exhausting. I used to do the counting too, as well as flicking light switches on and off, and having to touch/tap things a certain # of times. That stuff seems to have gone away, and it has all been channeled into washing/disinfecting. The funny thing is, my house is usually pretty messy, but certain things have to be immaculate, like the dishes, my hands, the kids hands, etc. Sorry for the novel.[img]smileys/smilies_01.gif[/img]

[kristin1980]

yes! i am very exhausted from this... the obsessions.. the routines.. the overly cleanliness.. ugh..


I was put on remeron this week supposedly its gonna knock me out i guess so i can sleep all night long and feel rested.. im sure ill be groggy at first.. but oh well..


Your not alone

[confusedgirl]

yeah, I've been like that too! even if I know my hands aren't germy, if they touch something I feel like I need to clean them anyway.. I've just started carrying hand sanitizer around, and using it when I feel like I "need" it... it's a lot quicker than constantly washing the hands.