Hi guys, I have been reading through this site a lot lately and feel really inspired in a weird way. Like evryone saying how they feel like they have no control and are just so depressed because this is not enjoying life. So in some weird way it has given me a little push. I know that I have to go out and enjoy my life, I can't be scared of this forever. So today When I woke up I grabbed my dog and took her for a walk. The route I take is about 20 minutes and I am aware of that but usually I will not even think about going without a bottle of water and gravol in my pocket. Today I just left, no gravol, no water.... no problem. It was great, I sort of felt panicked as I got farther away from home but just told myself I was fine and kept saying what a beautiful day it was and it worked... I am so thrilled that I made it!!! yay [img]smileys/smilies_04.gif[/img]