sorta triumph!

[livielove123]

So this is kind of a vent but it is a triumph becuase i stayed through
it.
Today at lunch was very stressful becuase i had to get lunch with out
washing my hands or using hand sanitzer. There was nothing there i
could eat with a fork that wasn't from the salad bar so i got a
sandwich and i ate it but left the parts of the sandwich that i held.
(does anyone else do that?)

My friend who sorta knows about my emet was kind of being mean
about it kept saying over and over that geez i needed help. I got kind
of tired of it and told her to please stop becuase im kind of sensitive
to the whole thing.

Well then she got all pissy at me and made me upset and therefore i
was n* more than i usually am after lunch. Then as we were walking
out the fire alarm went off right in my ear and everyone had to run
into the gym for a drill. I was very n* at this point.

The fire drill ran 10 minutes into the next period which just so
happened to be when i had a test for one of my AP classes. I am
applying early desicion and i needed a reaaaaaally good grade in the
test becuase it was the last grade that my colleges would see so it
had to be pretty damn good. So of course it was cut way short, and i
was n* and couldn't concentrate!

Then i had another test the next period which i didn't have any time
to study for becuase it wasn't an AP and so i ended up bombing it. I
was chewing mint gum like crazy and was still rather n*

My last class i have with one of my friends whom i give a lot of hugs..
(i don't really know why...he just likes to hug everyone) and found
out that he was out sick today. One of my best friends just got over
an sv* so that really really did not help my n*

Then i had a play rehearsal with a bunch of annoying 10 year olds
who didn't know what they were doing and i had already had a
headache becuase i had been chewing gum for 5 straight hours....

Once I finally got home i was so glad the day was over, but i still had
some n*. I figured it was becuase i was stressed out and ate very
little for lunch and no snack inbetween. So i ordered a pizza and ate
4 slices and half a box of brownies.....it was so good!!!! Normally i
wouldn't have eaten but i thought...Olivia...you need to eat....Im still
a little anxious about my friend but i think seeing how things went
today it is ok to be a little anxious!

sorry for the long post...i was thinking today that i wish i could post
and whine but i didn't have my computer....i aplaud you if you have
gotten to the end!

[katiepool129]

Hey there, sounds like a really tough day andyou did great to stick through it and not run away from it all. Sounds like your friend at lunch was being a bit insensitive and i'm sure she'll be feeling bad about it now too. My friends had an SV too but she's ok now, not 100% but she hasn't been sick in a few days. (read my post about that if you wanna feel a bit better out it)

Anyway, well done for getting through the day.

[laneyb]

Well done for getting through the day, I hate being shut in anywhere so wd have hated being stuck in the gymwith lopts of people.


I do the food thing, if I cant wash or sanitize my hands before eating i wont eat anything that toushes my hands. My work colleagues laugh at me becos whenever i eat a biscuit or crisps or even a sweet, i have to clean my hands...........you are not alone!!!!


Laney xx

[surfjunkie]

Awesome job! I am glad that you didn't let your anxiety keep you from eating. I am beginning to learn that even though I don't want to eat, I feel worse if I don't.

Great job!!!

[livielove123]

Thanks guys!!

[rubysoho120]

When I was in high school before i got a good grip on my emets i would
eat crackers for lunch and ginger ale...and i would eat each part of
the cracker but what i touched, and then i was like oh hell no! and i
would put the end piece on the ground and it was good with me but my
friends would make fun of me..i ate toast with a fork or a napkin...i
wouldnt touch my food at all in those days, even after washing my
hands...

you did great by the way