I have good news for ya!!
mirtazapine or Zispin as its sometimes called, is really good!! So many people i know who have tried many drugs and havent agreed with them (myself included) have taken this and said it is wonderful. And i normally hate drugs, i took a low dose for 3 months then came off them again, and no point did i get a side effects.
The people i know who took it all said the same, they tried other drugs and had horrible horrible times and then they didnt with Zispin. The reason it isnt prescribed first is that it is more expensive than other drugs.
What i would say is this, have some anti nausea medicine just to make you feel safer,start on a very low dose, and try not to over think it cos you will feel side effects that arent even there.
I feel for you i truely do because i was agorpahobic also and had so many anti depressant problems. Feel free to PM me any time and let me know how you do
Good Luck
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