ok this may not be a biiiig issue for a lot of people.. but as you know ive been feeling rough for a couple of days i felt better this morning so i went shopping with my parner and on the way home i felt so ill on the bus and i KNEW it was going to happen it nearly did on the bus.!!!

so i got off.. and got in the house sat for about 10 mins then i let myself...!! i let myself DH* 3 times ... no i didnt like it but i will tell you all now.. im pleased with myself as i can safely say its not AS bad as i thought it would be.. yes i did it and its over now!
and i can say... if i did it again.. oh well !!!!!

The thing that we dont know is what is wrong with me.. i did go without food all day...!! so it cud be hunger or the fact i just wasnt better and i exhausted myself or it could be something else.. i dotn feel good now but im just watching telly and resting...!
i took 2 anti emetics before i DH* and they did stop me V* the only reason i DH* is cos i let myself do it!

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