I'm only bringing this up here because I know there's people on here who have ocd, and maybe someone can point me in the right direction on where to find info on this!
But anyways, I was diagnosed with ocd probably... 12 years ago? When I was 8 or so. My parents didn't put me on anything, and I didn't take the diagnosis seriously (I still don't completely..) and most of the things I did obsessively back then I just grew out of..
But for YEARS it's been very hard for me to read! When I was growing up I read tons.. then I got to jr high and just.. couldn't.. anymore (looking back on it, I realize this started probably a half yr or so after emet.. huh). I couldn't express what the problem was really, but it was like I was compelled to read and reread sentences over. Now, this rarely ever happens if I'm reading on the computer, or in a magazine.. just in books mostly. I didn't know why I felt this way, just that if I didn't reread the sentences, I'd feel like a horrible person, and like I was a fraud (like, if I didn't reread every last word, than I couldn't claim that I'd read the book, because I hadn't, because of that ONE MISSED WORD SOMEWHERE). I got eye examinations and reading glasses and than I just quit reading because it was so stressful. In school, I just would skim, or not do any of the reading and just bs my way along fine (for whatever reason, skimming doesn't bother me - if I have no intention of reading the book, I can skim, but if I want to have "read" the book, I have to reread!). Now, I'm reading again.. but it takes me soo long to get through anything! I like stories, but I hate the process of reading! A couple of weeks ago, I was reading while my friend was doing hw.. in two hours, I had read 20 pages. That's how long it takes me to read anything. I thought something was wrong with me but I had no clue what, until a friend with ocd told me that the compulsion to reread is a very common sign of it..
So I guess my question is, now I've figured out the problem, what now?? I'm not really ocd in other ways (I do recheck to make sure the fridge is closed and my door is locked most nights at least a few times, but I can also just ignore that and it will go away after a while.. with reading, I catch myself rereading a line without even realising I'm doing it! And then if I try to force myself to stop and move on, I get so anxious I have to close the book and take a break. And I realize that rereading is irrational but I can't stop..).. Does anyone know how to get passed this? Or know of any sources of information on ocd that talk about this? Google is turning up info on ocd in general, not just rereading.....
Thanks!