I avoid things that led me to V in the past.. like things i ate, things i watched, things i did, places i went. the last time i V ed, i stopped drinking the juice i had, the foods i ate, in fear of eating them again because of what happened, i refuse to do things that would resebmle the past, i will not eat ice cream anymore because in kindergarten i got the stomach bug and the last thing i ate was ice cream, so im terrified of it. i wont do out of the ordinary stuff, such as things i did around the times i V ed affraid if i do it will bring back the past! like the last time i got sick i was laying on the coutch and it happened, now i will NEVER lay on my parents coutch in that same area again, infact i will never sit on their coutchs only the recliner!
and my other question
How many of you stil V with this phobia? how many times have you done it? and could this be the cause of why i have the phobia. i only Ved twice in my life im 21 years old, i had the stomach bug in grade school, i was 5 years old 2 days of doing the deed, and if i remember right i was scared, i remember after the first 2 times i sat on the coutch with my head over the edge crying! then the second time i was 11, i was in 6th grade, im now going to be 22 in in april. and it seems this fear jsut keeps getting worse and worse! is it because of how little i do it?
i remember both times pretty much detail by detail, and it keeps replaying in my mind when i get worried and start panicing. I associate the feelings i had and how things happend the last time with what happens now and i start to freak out.
Edited by: driftinggoddess