hey everyone,
i have been suffering from severe panic and anxiety attacks since i was like 10, im 24 now, and most of my panic attacks were always because i felt n** or seeing or even hearing about someone else v** and never knew why. i learned about emetophobia about 3 years ago while i was pregnant with my first child and finnally it all made sense, this is what i have. since bein pregnant with morning sickness i have become somewhat ok with doin it myself, i can ussually handle it , i mean i still panic but i am able to cope with it a little better now. also i have been able to control my anxiety attacks pretty well and things have been goin well. my life has been pretty normal.
i have been able to avoid seeing it for a very long time and now my oldest daughter is two and she had a really bad cold , just coughing and sneezing, and the other day she took me completely by surprise and v** in the middle of the living room. omg i tottally freaked out and panicked, i held it in while i cleaned it up and put her to bed but after ward i could not calm down, i was shaking horribly and my heart was pounding. and now its been a week and i still cant shake it i feel like im a little kid again not bein able to control my anxiety and panic and also i just had a baby 2 months ago and have been dealing with a little post pardum depression and the depression now is so bad because of all of the anxiety, im begining to feel hopelessness again. now ever since my daughter got sick i have been really weird around her like getting nervous when shes with me and i start to panic every time she start acting a little out of the ordinary for fear that she will do it again.and i get so nervous every time she eats and watch her carefully for signs that she might v** i dont know what to do with myself i am so upse t about this that i cant feel comfortable around my own daughter.
my question is to any emet with kids how do you deal with it when your kids get sick? do you ever get past it or do you tottally loose it when it happens? i dont know what to do, i know kids get sick but up until this point i never even thought about how i would deal with it when it happens. i was totally unpreparedand now im a f*ckin mess and dont know what to do. i dont want this phobia to change how i am with my kids and its begining to. and i feel horrible about it, this is such a crippling phobia, does anyone ever get over it and how? i dont want to be constantly worrying that my kids gonna v** ,i cant live like that. please help
dana