Hi Guys!
As some of you may remember I am leaving for boot camp in 3 days and have been very up and down with nerves and anxiety. But last night I was talking with my husband I kind of had a realization breakthrough! I wanted to share. Here it is:
What's going to happen at boot camp will happen. I mean, how I do with the exercises and tests is directly related to how well I prepare, I understand that. But those aren't the things I've been anxious about! All the things that make me crazy with worry will happen or they won't happen. If someone is going to v* on me, nothing I do will change that. If a sv is going to go on a rampage around our barracks, nothing I do will change that. I can continue to wash my hands and not touch my face, but that's all!
So I've been spending all this time and energy worrying about these things that are out of my control, or over which I have very little control. I can either worry about them and they might happen, or I can not worry about them and they might happen. I'd rather have the second option! All I can do is prepare for the worst and try to control my reaction if they do happen.
Thanks for reading this long post! Who knows, probably tomorrow I'll be freaking out again, but today I feel good![img]smileys/smilies_13.gif[/img]Wish me luck at boot camp!