Hey guess what, I v'ed 2 times earlier TONIGHT and RIGHT
AFTER DOING IT, I SAID "WHAT THE HELL WAS I SO SCARED OF??" but.......
now that I am feeling better, I am just as phobic as I was earlier in
the day The last time I v'ed before tonight, sober that is was
almost 16 years ago and same damn thing. I kept on saying over and over
again how bad it really wasnt but 2 minutes later, I became my same
emetophobic self and I am just like that now *sigh* I hate this. Well I
am in therapy for it so maybe it will, someday, somehow be conquered. I
honestly wondered since I am still an emet after it happened tonight



Miriam

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