recently i have been great and truly panic free, no more anxiety related n* (although i get n* from the coelaic i have), no panic attacks, no obbsessive hand washing and not much worried thoughts.....however, in my head i keep thinking about what it would be like when i do, (notice i put when not if) as i really want to be able to do it, so what is my next step, do i go to therapy and risk stirring it up again or do i try something else....

i feel like it is time it went away and i could v*, but i still think v* is an awful experience and dont really ever want to do it......im so confused please help