yesterday was the best day ive ever had in my life! i was at school, and we had an 8th grade picnic. my entire grade got on a BUS (i didnt get n* or freak) and went to this park about 6 or 7 miles away. i was outside all day, touchign playground equiptment, sand, grass, someone elses tennis raquet, and other stuff. when lunch came, i SHARED food with my friends, and DIDN'T wash my hands! i didnt think about v* once!! i even sung on these swings after eating, and got n*, but didnt stop swinging! i also went to a fancy dress/suit party with my 8th grade class and had fun! i didnt call home or think about v* either! it sounds like im 7 or something, but with the sturucture and anxiety in my life, its nice just to let go and be a kid for a day.