I can sorta relate. I have MAJOR anxiety/worry that my daughter will v*.My emet is mostly of OTHERS around me V*ing (though I HATE doing it myself, and very rarely DO it... and when I feel nauseous I get anxious and sometimes freak out pretty bad if I think it's a bug or FP or something... If I know its JUST anxiety and nerves I know I can control the n* and not "let myself" v* so it's not so scary).
However, you were saying that you are fine with seeing, hearing, smelling V* - I AM NOT THAT BRAVE AT ALL!! That's my main fear. And another reason why when *I* am the one that V*s Its not as scary to me b/c I can have more control over the situation. I don't think of myself as a control freak, but maybe I am a bit of one in some senses... and that is maybe partially what drives my phobia... the fact that V* is such an uncontrollable thing (especially with kids)... and I never know when or where it might happen & that freaks me the hell out!![img]smileys/smilies_03.gif[/img]
I don't keep bowls and baggies everywhere "in case" but it is CONSTANTLY in my mind that my daughter might v* at any time and I have a constant mild-anxiety daily over it. Anytime anyone around me v*s (even if I don't see it or have to deal w/ "it" in a direct way) I get MAJOR anxiety that me or one of my family members will catch whatever it is & end up v*'ing too.
The one time my daughter did V (she's only 2) was in her bed & ever since that time, I have not slept well at all. We still have the baby monitor in her room & every time I hear her move I get a little surge of anxiety run through me for a few minutes. I'm terrified of waking up to the sounds of her v*ing. I also have a 4 mo old who sleeps in our room (not our bed, but our room - for now) so he also contributes to my lack of sleep at the moment, but I DO lose a lot of sleep b/c the thought of waking up to hearing someone v*ing plagues me as I am trying to fall asleep.
*~ Sarah (35) ~*
Emet-Mama to:
Ashlee (5.5 yrs), Lex (4yrs) & Drake (1 yr)