Hello all, (graphic.. havent used the whole v* n* rubbish im afraid.. theyre just words!)
not sure if there was a specific forum on here for this but just thought i'd tell a bit about myself, my emetophobia etc..
well, im trying to figure out what started this whole thing off, and i have no idea, i've always had issues with it, not liking to see it, smell it etc, and when i vomited i hated it but it didn't affect my life, i wasn't controlled by the fear of it. when i was younger around 15 years old i was a bit of a teenage reprobate =p i took a lot of drugs and drank way too much, i puked on many occasions due to this and although i hated it, it didn't stop me from doing things again and again. when i was 17 i began having panic attacks which (luckily) stopped my drug taking completely because it always set them off, so i moved 250 miles to live with my dad in cornwall (england, UK..) i wanted to be away from the groups of people i was friends with because they were all still stuck in the whole drinking, drugs phase and i was done with it, needed to escape. problem was that when i moved i had way too much time on my hands and the panic attacks became worse and worse, at the height of an attack i always thought i was going to throw up which is what started my emet off properly, 2 years later when i was 19 i moved back home, i learnt to combat my panic attacks and havent had a proper one in 3 or 4 yearsanyway, i met my fiance and fell pregnant all within a year.. lol, this is when i realised how bad my emet had become.. the dreaded morning sickness from the pregnancy [img]smileys/smilies_06.gif[/img] i was really poorly for 6 weeks, constant nausea that drove me insane, had to quit both the jobs i had and basically stayed in bed the whole time! never once vomited though, by then i had learnt all the tricks to stop it happening and was succesful [img]smileys/smilies_01.gif[/img] when i gave birth to my gorgeous daughter the one thing that terrified me was puking during the birth, due to pain meds, so i refused everything, wrote it in my birth notes and everything, but it was ignored completely! by the time i was in agony crying etc i was in no fit state to refuse anything, the midwife pressured me to have pethidine.. and i gave in, i was in way too much pain, but this made me feel so so sick, as soon as i had her i threw up twice.. it wasn't too bad actually, didn't bother me much, i think it was because i didn't fight it and there was no retching etc, it just came with no effort or thought on my part.
anyway, since then i have been prescribed many many medications for different things and i always refuse them, my fear of medication has been a problem since i was 17, havent touched even paracetomol since then. have been prescribed antibiotics for dental work etc and always say no! untill recently.. i am currently 34 weeks pregnant with my second (another girl =p) i had even worse morning sickness with this one! lasted from 6 weeks to 26 weeks =| yuck! didn't vomit though, just felt like it for 20 weeks, lol. at 30 weeks i went into premature labour and had to have this horrible stuff through an IV and 2 steroid injections, was sent home from hospital after 4 days, then a couple of weeks later i find out i have a staph infection, was prescribed antibiotics which i tried to refuse but had to go back and basically was told i didn't have a choice, i could lose the baby if i didnt do it, so here we are.. day number 2 of my antibiotic treatment, and actually it's not so bad! i'm coping a hell of a lot better than i thought i would, yesterday was the first day and i was really scared and anxious all day, think i imagined the nausea completely because today i feel ok, woke up this morning with some d* but thats about it, i'm just hoping i can get through the next week without puking, if i do then it'll be such a huge deal to me! nobody seems to understand at all, my partner, bless him, is the most wonderful supportive guy i've ever known but although he tries he
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