Hi mrsgrady! I hear you; not a day passes where I don't think about the possibility of my wonderful husband leaving me over my fears of having children. He wants children so badly, and I feel beyond awful that I don't share his enthusiasm at times. Most days, I do think that I want children. On bad days where my emetophobia dominates, I think "How could I ever be a mother? Can I really do this?" Then again, I also think of how much it would suck to grow old and be alone, all because of a stupid fear!
My husband came to my therapy session today for the first time, and when the subject of having children came up I totally lost it [img]smileys/smilies_16.gif[/img]However, both the therapist and my husband have been very supportive (it definitely helps me to look at the positives of this situation!) And obviously, the support of caring people on this site who can relate helps too [img]smileys/smilies_13.gif[/img] I'm glad that you found/joined the site! And I hope that if you do seek therapy that you find someone compassionate who is with you every step of the way [img]smileys/smilies_14.gif[/img]
"People can't do something themselves, they want to tell you that you can't do it. You want something? Go get it. Period."