oh my god that is awfull hun. my family too live at the other end of the country,but if i am honest the dont really understand the extent of my phobia and how it effects myself and my children. There view is that i chose to have my girls, and children get ill so i have to deal with it. a child being severely ill is traumatic at the best of times. When my 2 year old was ill i could not cope. The day she was addmitted to hospital she projectile v* her bowel contence. That was it for me, thats what toppled me over the edge. looking back on things now i am completely ashamed at how i delt with it. my 4 year old who was only 2 and a half at the time and she got herself up, went into my bedroom (at that time i slrept downstairs) and wipped the v* off her face, out of her hair and tried to change her clothes before i went up to her.

she went to a and e on the saturday and the thought of me going completely frightened me so someone else had to take her and i spoke to the doctor over the phone. i did the same the day before her transfer to a specialist childrens hospital.

Now listen to what im saying because its absolutely true. Not being able to cope does not make you a bad mum ok. Your baby knows that u love her like my two do. I can honestly put my hand on my heart and tell you if i did not have my support network i would be in the situation as u. Its wrong for social services to threaten u with things like that, because it does not help you. They need to work with u, your hv and gp and help u establish a support network. And hun there is nothing wrong with asking for help x x x