Warning! Graphic!!

I had my first panic attack in a while the other day in
health class. We had a substitute teacher, so we were
taking a break from our STD unit (yay...) and instead
watched a movie on people who gave birth without knowing
they were pregnant. I expected it to be mildly
interesting, even if slightly unpleasant since due to
being emet I hate the thought of pregnancy, but it was
UNBELIEVABLY GRAPHIC. I was horrified. Not only did they
show some really realistic re-enactments of birth, but
they showed them having morning sickness! Even the other,
non-emet kids around me were disgusted. My mind was
racing, but I thought I could make it until I realized
how fast my heart was beating. So I worked up the courage
to face the embarrassment and ask the substitute if I
could leave class. He gave me permission, and I went
outside and sat on the floor and was mostly OK. Then the
sub came out and asked me exactly what was wrong, more
because he thought I was messing around than because he
was actually concerned. I calmly explained to him that I
have a phobia of being sick and after he went back inside
the classroom, I completely broke down. It was odd that
it didn't happen until that point. Maybe because I wasn't
wondering anymore whether I could handle the movie or not
and was just focusing on the actual experience itself.
But I was shaking and crying and could barely breathe. On
a humorous note, the only person who passed me while I
was freaking out was a blind kid, who obviously couldn't
see that I was crying. :P Once I heard the movie stop, I
went back inside and sat back down in my seat and told my
friend what had happened. Then the sub realized that we
still had five minutes left in the period, and he turned
the movie back on. I froze, and went to leave again, but
he said, "We're only watching two more minutes. You can
sit down." So that was really not cool, even though I was
mostly okay at that point. Plus the documentary was at a
point that it was obvious that no one was going to be
sick. I finished the period without any further mishaps,
but it was definitely the strongest physical reaction I
have ever had to my fears. Usually I just worry and
mentally feel my stomach, but I've never shaken or cried
like that before. It was terrifying.