I wanted to just say that i am very envious of the ppl out there that have support from family and friends while dealing with emetophobia and/or OCD....I personally have been emetophobic since ATLEAST kindergarten (i am 30 now) and have never had anyone that understands me.I have been married for 7 yrs and have 3 wonderful children(whom i have basically tried to seclude from the world 4 the past couple of yrs)....U see i am DEATHLY afraid of them getting sick to the point that i keep them away from alot of fun things...especially interacting with other kids...Like i said before, my emetophobia started when i was very young but just has just recently gotten extreme. My 3 yr old had rotavirus TWICE in a 2 wk period when he was about one and a half.He was hospitalized and without ANY food or water 4 about 5 days. He couldnt keep anything down. It was my worse nightmare come true.... He almost died..My emetophobia got VERY uncontrollable to the point where i wouldnt let my kids sleep in their own beds..They still sleep with me to this day. Ive never experienced anything like it before in my life and it scared me so bad. I have always wanted someone that could understand how i felt and then i found this site. It has helped alot but i still wish i had support from my family......My husband has a christmas party to go to tonight 4 his company and there is going to be kids there..I wanted to go with him but i just couldnt do it..I couldnt fathom the thought of my children playing with other (possibly sick) kids..I know that its terrible but i cant help it. Anyway, i told my husband that id rather not go and he starts yelling profanities at me and saying i act like a "retard" and hes tired of this crap and im a weirdo and so on...I started getting upset and crying and a few minutes later my 3 yr old son Layne was sitting in my lap and my husband walks by and says "Layne,you better get out of mommys lap...U might have GERMS!" It hurt me so bad. I just wish he knew the pain that i feel everyday...And the ONE person that i need by my side to comfort me has to be a rude, callous and insensitive. My husband- the one person i should be able to count on (besides my kids.) Im upset, hurt and dont see the light at the end of the tunnel anymore.... So, to all of u lucky ppl out there who have a support system.....I envy u and thank u for reading this.