I've only ever dealt with my emet issues by myself. I haven't told anyone that I suffer from it. The reason for that is because I absolutely know the reaction I'll get ''oh don't be silly, NO ONE likes to throw up''...and that'll be it. It'll probably also be mentioned ''umm, exactly how often do you throw up?'', which of course is extremely rarely. I don't see anyway of justifying this phobia to anyone. I can't even justify it to myself; it's competely irrational. I also have a phobia of heights and cockroaches - stupid?
So anyhow, I feel like it would be impossible to have a relationship with someone. I've never been in one for both emet and other reasons and I feel completely overwhelmed at the possibility of missing out on something incredibly awesome with another person. Currently I'm able to go through my little routines whenever I'm feeling n* and sometimes I have panic attacks about it. How would I ever be able to explain this to somebody? I get n* a fair bit due to IBS and usually I'm able to tell the reason that I'm feeling n*, but there are still times where I freak out.
I hate this. I hate feeling this way. I didn't even have emetophobia last year.