I just wanted to let everyone know that I had a great success the other night! I think somehow, for some reason, my phobia is starting to get a little better...at least about some things.

On Saturday night I had my boyfriend and a few of our friends over. Neither my boyfriends or I were drinking that night, but the three other guys were already drunk and one of them was passing out on my couch. His face looked pale but I wrote it off as nothing...until he sat up all of a sudden and said "I'm about to throw up." For a second I was terrified! The guy got up and ran towards the bathroom and wasn't even able to shut the door before he started v*. Usually if someone is doing that in my apartment (although it's never happened more than once or twice before) I go outside on the porch because it's a pretty small place and outside is the only place that feels far away enough to be safe.

I'll admit I reached for the doorknob and even opened the door a crack, but I caught my boyfriend's eye before I went out. He was trying not to laugh at his friend (he's one of those lucky fools who things v* is actually funny!) who was having a terrible time in the bathroom but when he saw that I was about to leave he got up and came over and gave me a big safe hug and said "Sometimes you've just got to be able to laugh at it." At that minute the guy in the bathroom let out a hilarious sounding whine of pain and I actually did start laughing! But then I did something that really surprised me but made me feel really proud: I filled up a cup of nice cold water and brought it into the bathroom where the guy was laying with his head on the toilet and I set the cup down next to him, gave him a gentle pat on the back, and shut the door on my way out for him. While I'm sure he just considered it common courtesy, you will all understand how much of a big deal it is that I was able to do that for him...especially because he's the one I feel the least close to of the three friends that were over!

Either way, the whole thing made me feel really hopeful that maybe this phobia is something I can actually overcome with time. Cheers!