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    I'm new here, so I don't have many recent things to talk about, but I'd like to share a triumph I made a few months ago....


    Up until I was 19 years old (currently I am 20), I was deathly afraid of alcohol, because I associated it with v*. Then, I got a girlfriend who drank on occasion (which really scared me!), and she eventually convinced me to try it... and I realized that people could acutally be responsible about drinking, if they want to be. But anyway, that's not really the point of the story.... So last semester, my neighbor and I decided to have a small gathering of people in our dorm rooms, which have a connecting door. We planned to have alcohol... and, of course I was worried, but I knew all these people really well, and didn't expect them to over-do it. I even laid down rules before we started drinking, such as "Be respectful of property, keep the noise levels down... and NO V-ing!!" My brother, who was visiting for the weekend, even backed me up on this rule, because he knows how afraid I am (even though he taunts me with it sometimes by making gagging noises[img]smileys/smilies_07.gif[/img]). So the party ensues, and people are having lots of fun, and several of us decide to do one last shot to wrap up the drinking for the evening...... and lo and behold... that one last shot pushed one of my friends over the edge, and she v-ed in my room!!![img]smileys/smilies_10.gif[/img] AHHHHH!!! I immediately turned around and shut my eyes, held my ears, held my breath, and began to freak out. My friend MC (short for Mary Catherine) noticed my reaction, and helped escort me out of the room. I was going to be brave enough to turn around, and see how much damage was done, but she wouldn't let me (probably a good thing!), I kept telling her I was fine, and she said, "Anyone who reacts like that is most likely not fine!" Meanwhile, I hear people asking my brother things like "Does he get sick if he sees it?" So I get escorted into the next room, and sit down, with people watching me intently asking "Are you okay?" I told them yes... all the while I'm having a panic attack, and swallowing and breathing hard to prevent myself from gagging, so I doubt they believed me! I was just sitting there feeling like everyone was going to abandon me and I'd have to suffer through cleaning it up... but that didn't happen at all. My brother and MC took initiative, and cleaned up very well. It's lucky that I'm a clean freak, so I had the necessary cleaning agents in my closet for them to use. Even though I knew they were cleaning, I had to get out of there, so I went outside, even though it was really cold (cold helps me calm down). Eventually a my brother came outside and reported that my floor was probably cleaner now than when you moved into the room. [img]smileys/smilies_01.gif[/img] I still thank God that I have such great friends. It took me quite a while to build up the nerve to go back into my room, but eventually I did... for a while afterward, eveytime I stepped foot in my room, that's what I thought about, but now those thoughts are pretty rare.


    Wow, that's a long story! Sorry... didn't mean to babble on for so long. I don't know how much of a triumph that really was, but it felt like quite a large one for me, especially considering someone v-ed in my dorm room! She still apologizes from time to time for doing that, and I tell her not to worry about it. Never thought I'd be able to do that! [img]smileys/smilies_04.gif[/img] Okay, I'm done writing now. Thanks for listening to my rambles.


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    Hey Zach-


    I consider that a triumph because you got through it and past it! Use this experience to let yourself know that something THIS intense happened, butyou were fine in the end and now you can go into your room without any problems.


    I also like to use experiences like this to remind myself that v*ing isn't that bad, it is the anxiety that is horrible! I'm sure your friend who v*ed recovered within hours,while ittook youmuch longer to feel safe in your room again. We live with anxiety and panic everyday because of this phobia. Wouldn't it be better to live with v*ing once every 20+ years than that??
    Soluene

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    Good job Zach!


    You kept control of yourself, which is a HUGE triumph! Be proud! I'd probably cry if someone v'ed in MY room! Hehe.


    Congrats again!
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    Zach, You go into your room and you said you don't really think about it anymore, that is a HUGE triumph!!! That you don't have to obsess about it and not remember exactly where that spot was, and play that over and over in your head, good for you!!!


    AND... that you had a drinking party in your room!!!!!!!!!! [img]smileys/smilies_10.gif[/img] Huge step forward!!!!!Edited by: 2jo2
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    Well done! Thats great, that you have such good friends... my friends will probably be like.. erm.... 'FREAK!' And probably make me clean it up! lol [img]smileys/smilies_05.gif[/img]


    I hate drinking too, but all my friends get drunk most weeks, so i never go out with them, and they always ask why... and i never know what to say, except i have recently told one of my friends about it, and she sort of understands.... i still need to explain it a bit more though!


    At a party, my friends 16th, she invuited everyone who was anyone! lol and 90% of them turned up drunk, and was still drinking once we got inside, and one lad was sick, and kept being sick! but the good thing was... i never even worried... i was even stood in the area where he was sick for about 20 secs [img]smileys/smilies_10.gif[/img]i think it was cos i knew he was sick with drinking, and i hadnt been drinking, so i know i wudn;t be sick!


    lol i just remembered that... that was quite a triumph wasn't it? [img]smileys/smilies_01.gif[/img]hehe!

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    im like you were, cant go anywhere near alcohol, especially not drink it. maybe one day i'll 'grow out' of that, but sumhow i dont think so. i guess im not missing out on much, most the timeim a generally hyper person, i dont need alcohol to make me happy, lol.


    anyway, welldone on getting thru tht experience. i think u did pretty well, and its good u hav friends lke that


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    way to go hun!
    Omnia vincit amor. -- \"Love conquers all.\"

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    YAY! Great job handling it!
    \"As soon as you trust yourself,you will know how to live.\"
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    \"Do not anticipate trouble, or worry about what may never happen. Keep in the sunlight.\"
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    I agree!!!! This is a HUGE HUGE triumph!!!!! I am amazed at how much we underestimate ourselves sometimes. We really ARE capable of getting through these situations, even though they are as scary as hell. We're stronger than we think we are!!!! Good going again!!





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