this mornin when i was brushin my teeth i heaved! it wasnt nice, but i realised that its not scary, i was a bit shaken up by it but still mananged to go out this afternoon which im proud of! its not the nicest thing in the world but the last few days ive been really thinkin about my emet, and altho its not nice at all, i think ive realised that i cant let myself fear this anymore, i dont know WHY im scared i just am, but ive kept telling myself recently that im not scared anymore, and to be honest, its starting to work. everytime i think about my emet i just say to my self 'yeah but im not scared anymore, its fine, theres nothin to be scared of' and its really helpin me, cos i dont feel as afraid as i used to be, anyway just wanted to tell u all that im on a new step with my emet, one step closer to freedom!!
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