Really really scared, someone please help

[uidactinide]

I'm so scared right now. I feel so sick. My stomach and throat keep
tightening. It's getting worse and worse, and will feel better for a
few minutes, then get worse again. My fiance's tried everything, from
breathing techniques to guided stories to just holding my hand and
trying to get me to concentrate on him rubbing it. Nothing's working. I
don't have a fever, he's eaten everything that I have today, and he
insists that it's just stress and I'm making it worse. I'm so
disappointed in myself. I was better for so long. I went for months
without feeling sick, and then when I did it would pass in a few
minutes. It's been getting worse and worse over the last week or two,
and I just want it to go away again. I don't understand why it's back.
I want someone to help me, and no one can make it go away. I don't know
what to do. I've take anti-nausea, I've tried all the usual techniques
we use for me to calm down, and nothing is working. I'm sure someone
will think I'm just being dramatic, but I don't care. Please someone,
anyone, tell me what I can do. I feel so sick, and it won't stop. If it
were food poisoning it would have hit soon after I ate whatever might
have been bad, right? If I were sick I would have a fever, right?
Please, please please, someone. Please. I wish I had an injection of
something to make me go to sleep so I wouldn't have to deal with this.
Jesus, I haven't been this bad in years, and I just want it to stop. I
wish someone would please just make it stop. I'm shaking so badly I can
barely type. My legs are shaking so badly I can't walk. I broke skin on
my fiance's hands from squeezing them so tightly. I don't understand
why this is happening after so long of being alright. I don't
understand why people like me and you all have to go through this. I
don't understand why ANYONE should have to go through this. This is the
single most horrible thing on the planet, and sometimes I think that I
would rather die than go through another second of this. It's just
getting worse and worse. It won't go away. I haven't been crying as
much as usual lately, and maybe that's why the emetophobia is getting
worse. I ate chicken from KFC that he didn't, and maybe it was bad. How
long does it take for the contents of your stomach to digest? I think
it's 18 hours, but I don't remember, and I don't want to wait that long
for this to go away. I just want to sleep. I want to sleep so badly,
and I can't even lay down because it makes it worse. I'm so sorry for
putting this here. I'm sorry. I don't know what other group of people
could possibly understand. None of my friends understand. My fiance
understands it to a point, but he can't understand it completely
because he isn't an emet. You guys are the only people I know who can
really really really understand what this is like, and I'm sorry for
putting this here. I'm sorry to anyone who feels like they have to
respond. This isn't your problem, it's mine, and I'm here on the
internet anyway rambling and freaking out about it to strangers, but
understand that it's so bad that I don't know what to do and I just
want to go to sleep. I want someone to hit me over the head with
something, or inject me with something to make me sleep, so I don't
have to do this anymore. I want to cry but I can't because that will
just make it worse. I don't know what to do. I want it to go away. I
want someone to help me, but I don't have enough money to go to a
doctor or buy the medicine they would prescribe. I don't know if they
could help me anyway. I'm tired of this, so tired of it. I want it to
just stop. I wish someone or something was strong enough to make it go
away, but that's impossible. I just want to sleep.

[uidactinide]

Now I feel really dizzy.

[2jo2]

Do you think maybe you're having a panic attack? I'm sorry I don't know what to say to make you feel better. Do you have any Ativan or Xanax to take or something? I hope you're feeling better.

[princessmel]

How are you doing now?

[chloe]

Gosh! I'm sorry you're feeling so rough. Like 2jo2 says it sounds like a panic attack. The worst thing about them is that the slightest feeling of nausea can set one off and the more you panic the more nauseous you feel.


Trying lying down and put on some soothing classical music to calm you down..I find that helps...and do try to concentrate on your breathing..I know it's easier said than done but do try..


I really hope you feel better soon


*hugs*

[goosey]

I hope you are doing ok now.

[sunshine16]

I sure hope your ok now! That sounds aweful.

[jazz]

firstly, think rationally [img]smileys/smilies_01.gif[/img]i know exactly how you're feeling, iv been there several times, but remember, you are in a safe place.
The stomach digests it's contents every 4-5 hours, and it empties itself every 20minutes i believe..so the persistant nausea you're experiencing is probably being made worse because of the stress you're under.
this isn't the easiest of situations for you, and this is making your body give you some real odd symptoms..(but they're not really there! remember that)


you're not feverish, you haven't eaten something funky, you haven't overreaten, you're just panicky..and because you're generally alert about what you're putting into your stomach, you're twice as likely to get into a state about it...don't panic! im positive you'll be ok

[desertflower]

I hope you are okay now. It sounds like a panic attack for sure. If you are actually "sick" that can make the panic attack worse. I totally understand though although i know that does not help you much. I wish i knew what to do or say. I hate not being able to help someone in a time like this especially when I have been there.





Gosh I hope you are okay now.





Nicole

[charzysbebe]

That sounds horrible! I hope youare doing a bit better by now.[img]smileys/smilies_06.gif[/img] It does sound like a really bad anxiety attack. Maybe you can can talk yourself out of it? That is what I do. Eventually, I start to listen to my rational side, relax, and then I start to feel better.


If you really are getting sick, try not to panic. Tell yourself that it is something that thousands of people have in this world, every single day. (scary but true) Tell yourself you will not die, and you have done it before.


I am hoping you are ok by now...and cheering you on if you are dealing with the "real thing"! [img]smileys/smilies_01.gif[/img] Charlotte

[gutterglitter]

Oh god, as an emetophobe, I would never eat from KFC. That's probably it. And food poisoning generally takes that long to kick in. I once got food poisoning from onion rings and it hit me 14 hours after I had consumed it. It could be anxiety. Sometimes, I get really really nauseous for no reason at all. Then it passes. But I'm sure eating KFC didn't help. Wow, well, in general, if you can handle eating KFC and not freaking out that you'll get sick, you're brave! Well, what would crying have to do with your emetophobia? I know how you feel, I really do. I know the feeling where you know you can "v" and feel better, but you want to deal with the discomfort more than having to "v". It sounds like you have a very understanding fiance. You're lucky. I find that I also drink herbal tea when I feel sick and it helps. Ginger or peppermint is the best for nausea. It's gentle on the stomach but help feeling sick and it's hydrating at the same time. That's another part of my phobia is that I'm afraid that I will dehydrate when I'm sick. My phobia is much better. I can be sick and I know I feel sooooooooooo much better afterward because it's such a relief when the nausea is gone. But I totally understand you feeling terrified about it.

[sunshine16]

How are you now?

[uidactinide]

Thank you so much everyone for not thinking I'm a stupid little baby.



I talked to TrickyVicky and barefootanjel for a few minutes in chat
last night, and talking to them really helped me calm down so that I
could sleep. I slept okay, and I'm a lot better this morning, but I
haven't had the nerve to eat anything besides a little bit of soup and
some water. I think I really am sick (I'm kind of feverish today), but
so far it seems like I'll be able to make it through without v*



I haven't had a panic attack as bad as last night's for years, and I
think the fact that it's been so long might have made it even worse.



I'm sorry about all of last night's rambling, but thank you again for being so supportive and sweet, all of you.

[princessmel]

I'm glad you are feeling much better. [img]smileys/smilies_01.gif[/img]

[gutterglitter]

I'm glad you're feeling better too! KFC is the devil! JK.

[justintd]

My most recent incident. I was getting up for work, and felt a little off (had felt off the night b4 as well). Went into the bathroom to put in my contacts and almost pooped myself. I went and laid on the couch after that. I spent the whole day on the couch, and did not V or have the runs again. I kept a bottle of Kalmz near me just in case. Anytime i ate or drank i would feel sick.


When I hear about someone getting sick, like iwth my current sickness, if i feel a panic attack coming on, I just tell myself, "Its all in your head..." and that helps me.