Miriam~
I've actually read it a few places. Because Kava Kava is not FDA regulated, you never really know what kind of dose you are looking at, but if you talked it over with your MD, and he/she approved it, go with it. What works for you, may not work for me. As far as gaining weight with meds, there are several out there that will combat it. I found that with the meds that actually worked (Celexa and Lexapro) I gained weight only because I was calm enough to eat (where as now I am a stress ball filled with anxiety, so I won't eat). I don't know if it has been approved for BDP, but Wellbutrin may be another option. It does not work on the same brain chemicals as the others. I don't want to give you bad advice, so I would ask Sage and she may be able to make some suggestions.
The most beneficial thing that you can do is see your counselor, though. It is a common thing in people with BPD to want the quick fix (i.e.meds), but it is the therapy that will change the "irrational" behavior. I have found that my biggest obsticle (i don't think I spelled that right!) has been setting and maintaining boundaries. (It is for many people with BPD) And only through therapy I have been able to identify healthy boundaries, and I have begun to maintain them. I urge you to read some books about BPD (not internet stuff) written by people with BPD or doctors that specialize in the disorder. When I was diagnosed I thought that I was completely broken and unfixable because the preliminary research I did was with old material. You will read a lot that BPD is something that can be helped but not cured (I personally think that is a load of s***), there are many studies done in the last few years that dispute that. It is a LONG journey, but you have to want to get better and be consistent about it (I know that's hard, I struggle with it everyday!!). Please, email me at anytime if you need any resources, or if you just want to vent. I know this can be frustrating, but you will get through it!
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