I absolutely love alcohol! For me it is the cure (albeit temporary) for my emet. While drinking I have no anxiety at all. While in college I got sick a few times while drinking and it didn't bother me at all. I would actually tell myself "You going to be sick, shouldn't you be freaking out?" Then I'd get sick and actually say, "I'm cured! I just got sick and it was nothing!" Then of course when I woke up in the morning hungover and feeling like crap, I was TERRIFIED that I would be sick again. I'm not sure where phobias exist in the brain, but at least for me, alcohol shuts that off. I've had to cut down quite a bit due to a worry of becoming alcoholic and as I have gotten older the after affects and anxiety have gotten unbearable.