This year is the worst my emet has been in a LONG time.
I started dating Chris back in April, so it's a fairly new relationship. I am VERY open with him about my emetophobia. I have told him absolutely everything about it. He has been VERY supportive of me and is TRYING to understand.
I remember one night I was pretty anxious and he said "Don't worry, hun. If you get sick, I will take care of you." And I was immediately defensive and snapped "No, you DON'T get it! I don't WANT to be sick! I'm not afraid of not being taken care of, I'm afraid of being sick!!!!"
I felt bad, because he was just quiet after that. I apologized and he said it was ok because he knew I was stressed and he was fine.
Lately, it's getting so bad that I will only leave my house to go to work...and that is even a struggle. So I haven't been going to his house, and he can't stay at mine because he's got dogs at his place that he needs to be there for overnight and such...which I totally understand being that I have dogs too, and WILL NOT leave them overnight.
Tonight while I was at work, he and I were texting back and forth and he seemed really short with me. I asked him what was wrong and he said that he was irritated that we haven't been spending much time together. I got really sad. I feel like a total burden and I don't feel that it's fair to him to have to "put up" with me. It's not like I'm married to the guy, but I just feel like I'm dragging him down with me....part of me wants to take a break until I get better (I've started treatment) but part of me doesn't want to lose him, either.
I don't know what to do. Is it selfish of me to want to take this emetophobia, head on by myself? I don't want to wrap anyone else up in my problem. I don't feel it's fair. I don't know.
Thoughts?