I'm so sorry you're feeling so horrible! I completely agree w/ everyone else and I think deep down you do too. I know it's very hard to end a relationship in which you have invested so much emotionally but if you're the only one investing then it's not really a relationship. I have been in relationship where I was the one giving and caring and getting nothing in return and it sucks and it hurts but then there is the fear that if you leave you will "lose" him completely and forever but what I have learned is that he is already lost and int hese situations that is actually better. You deserve to be loved and cared for as much as you are loving and caring. You deserve someone who calls you as soona s they wake up on Christmas morning to wish you a Merry Christmas and he wishes he could be there. You deserve someone who will "allow" you to call himwhenever you want to and who calls you, someone who respects you and gives as much love to you as you are to him and this guy is not doing any of it. A relationship is supposed to be 2 people who care about each other and love and support each other. So what are you really losing by ending it? Yes, it will hurt for a while but once you start to realize that he was doing nothing but causing you pain and sorrow you willa sk yourse;f why you didn't lose the loser sooner. (that's what I did anyhow lol) When someone treats you that way, someone who supposedly love syou, it can make you feel worthless and unlovable but look how many people here, who've never met you in person, responded to you and want you to be happy and KNOW that you deserve better, that doesnt' sound like a worthless person to me. It's sounds like someone who deserves and will find REAl love (just not w/ this joker who doesnt' deserve you or your time or love) I hope this helps. If you need/want to chat email or IM me. Good luck! You can do this!
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