My mom or dad can be in the house while I'm sick, and if anyone had to actually be with me when it happened, it would only be them, but otherwise, I HAVE to be alone. I don't even want to do it with doctors around. If I ever happened to get sick in public, I'd rather go hide outside than to use the bathroom. I suppose it's kind of a mix of embarrassment, and the feeling that if I'm alone, I can take any insane measures I want to help calm and prepare myself lol.