Hello, my name is Julianna. I'm 17 and have had this phobia ever since I can remember. It used to be really bad a year ago, I wouldn't eat, and dropped 10 pounds. During the past few months, I've grown tremendously close to God. Having faith in Jesus Christ has helped with my fears a lot to where I can eat and not obsess over it every minute of the day. However, I still think about it often, it's so annoying. I want to have faith it God and be made fearless in Him. I pray about this all of the time, but it scares me that the only way I'll truly be able to get over this someday is to actually v*. It's like I'm afraid to not be afraid, I'm afraid to get over it. I don't know who to talk to, all of my Christian friends live in Borrego Springs 2 hours away from me, and I attend a public school where I don't really have anyone to talk to. I know the whole point of this fear is to put yourself outside of your comfort zone, so I know it's a good thing to be alone, not clinging on to what makes you feel safe. But if I could at least have someone to talk to on here who understands... I don't want to live with this forever! But yet I'm afraid to take any more steps to recovery...
Thank you to anyone who reads this, and please let me know if you have prayer requests. Thank you.