feeling down and worried

[redapple]

stomach bug still circulating around campus..This has just been a bad
few weeks for me guys! i have a lot of studying to do, but i've
had some diarrhea today which is really freaking me out and i can't
concentrate. I just hope things get better instead of worse,
and that I can make it through this season without getting the bug.





Today is just one of those days, that i'm sure you've all had, where you not only feel worried and scared, but just sad and angry</font>
in general that you have to feel this way. I'm near tears because i am
just tired of feeling like a frightened 5 year old. i'm so angry that
all of us deal with this day to day.





my doctor has got me an appointment with a psychiatrist, but there are
so few in our area that they're all totally booked and i couldn't get
in until April. That is a long time, but at least i went ahead and
made the appointment.





my boyfriend has been so great to me lately. i dont' know what i'd do
without him. we've been together almost 2 years. he used to think of
me being scared as a silly thing that i needed to 'push out of my mind'
or 'grow out of'. It was finding this site that actually gave me the
courage to just burst into tears in front of him and explain to him the
extent of how this affects my life. Since then things have been much
different. He was able to completely ease me out of a total panic
attack the other nite by asking me to lean on his shoulder so he could
read to me aloud from The Purpose Driven Life. I just wanted you all
to know that because of all of you and this website, I now have him as
a great support instead of another who doesn't get it.




just needed to vent xoxo


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[abbey_normal]

Your not alone, that's how I have felt all weekend, and so far into the week...and I don't even know anyone who's had a stomach bug, yet I still find myself obsessed with worrying about it.


Emet Sucks....there I said it.

[susiep]

Poor thing. I know from talking to your sister that this bug has been going around your campus for a LONG time. The nasty thing has GOT to eventually burn itself out. I know how bad it feels to know that it is around. Just keep your hand cleaner going and watch what and where you eat. (I know I don't have to tell you that.)


It sounds like you have a wonderful boyfriend. That's great. Great book too.


I am still sending up prayers for you and your sister. You will get through this. I wish you could see the psychiatrist sooner. Call frequently to see if they have had a cancellation. I do that all the time.


Peace


Susie P

[ontariogirl]

redapple I can understand what you are going through, and it does suck. At least when you cry you are letting all the frustrations out, that is how I look at it. I hope you feel better soon and do what Susie says call the office to see if there are any cancellations, ask them to put you on a cancellation list if they have one!

[2jo2]

I can't believe that stubborn bug is hanging around like it is. I understand how you feel, and I'm so happy your boyfriend is supportive. I'll be thinking about you and your sister, stay well.

[redapple]

yes, damn that stubborn bug! i really appreciate all of your responses, a whole lot. So after I posted I read for awhile and eventually fell asleep. I was awoken by a sudden noise in my hallway and immediately felt nervous. I just prayed that God wouldn't let a panic come over me, not tonight. and He didn't. I fell back asleep a few minutes later. Right now I'm at work. Today has been a better day, until just about a half hour ago when sis and I went to dinner. I am SUPER full and it just didn't set with me right. I took some pepto and my stomach is starting to calm down. I appreciate your thoughts and prayers. I hope all of you are doing really well today.


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[madisonsmom]

I feel the same way. I am so down and angry with myself for allowing this to happen. I mean stomach bugs have been around for a long time and I never even cared. When I got it, I felt like crap for a day or two and that was it. It is not like I get it every year. I do see it a lot more being nurse and having 3 kids. Ugh...it really prevails over my life EVERYDAY.


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[mom5]

i know exactly how you are all feeling, i'm have been so down today, thinking life is to short to be this worried all the time, but i can't help it.

[redapple]

good point mom5. it would be nice if we could just think of
things like that and coax ourselves out of fear. Hope everyone's
doing well today...we're almost half thru February, so hang on!