the fear that it's not just 'being sick' - but that it is the start of a serious and life threatening illness....
it was just about being sick before, but i think i reached a similar point to the people in some of the blogs that are linked to this site....that is a few episodes of actual being sick over the last 5 years showed me that the real fear is not about being sick...even though i thought it was....i cannot explain it but i would say to anyone wondering, something happens when you are sick, usually, that makes you feel like 'is that it?' 'is that what i've been scared of the whole time?' It's just not as scary when it really happens and i really know that there will be many that won't agree with that even though they haven't been sick for ages......i wouldn't have....but i would say at least carry the hope that if the dreaded thing did happen it might not be what you imagine and actually you might be pleasantly (yep i'd even go that far) surprised....
So back to my fear...don't get me wrong i hate the feeling of nausea, but it's more about the meaning i put on the situation.....I'm just so afraid, now that i witnessed the death of someone (sudden death) that if i am alone (which i will be soon in a hotel room) that if i get sick, it's going to be something far far worse than that.
So wondering if anyone can help me? What can i tell myself? Are there any statistics out there about how dangerous vomiting is? Anyway of getting some surety that it really is 'just being sick.'
I really want to be one of those people who can be away from home and still be ill - without phoning someone to come pick me up or finding a way home to panic and suck mints.... :-(