Hi all, I'm new to the forum and I've joined because altho I make a joke about my fear, I've realised it's actually very real. Although I don't seem to have some of the symptoms I have read about so I'm a litle lost. I've had 2 very nauseating pregnancies, my last one was 15yrs ago but both of them I was sick from before I found out I was pregnant right until birth. With the first one I was sick all day then ate one meal late at night so it would b digested by morning and that's how it went All the way thro. With my second one I was admitted to hospital by 8weeks with dehydration and after that for the rest of the pregnancy I just ate smooth foods, strained soups, yogurts and jelly. I can cope with being sick if it's "smooth" but my biggest fear is "lumps" that just makes me worse and I will try and force myself not to b sick, keep anti emetics at all times. I know my fear is from my pregnancies as I was sick constantly, but I still can't shake it, is it just habit or a phobia? I shake and cry if I feel I'm going to b sick when it's not watery and the thought of it makes me feel worse. Actually as I'm writing this I'm fighting it and that's what has made me realise it's real!! I can't go b sick, I really cannot face it!! Help!! Ali