Ok for some reason yesterday I cleaned my entire house. I was tired but not too bad. I have been having personal problems in my life emotionally. Well I started to think about my mom who passed away November 2009. I got really upset I went through it all in an hour sadness and guilt. I had the hiccup cries. It was so bad I started to feel n* so I took and anxiety pill to calm down and go to sleep. I never quite delt with my mom dying. I was upset but I just kept myself busy to not think about it and pretty much repressed my feeling toward it. I think I keep feeling if I let myself actually feel it I will loose my mind. I dont know how to cope. She's always been the one to help me but she's gone and I don't know what to do. Well anyway sorry that is so long. But anyway today I keep getting n* on and off. Has anyone gone through this? I need help.