I'm so sorry for you, I know exactly how you are feeling.
I lost my mum in April 09 & I am still struggling big time!! She was also my best friend & we were extremely close. We used to talk about everything together & I feel so lost without her. I actually only just had a bit of a breakdown about her earlier tonight. I have bad health at the moment & have had to rely on my mother in law abit to help take my son to school etc. It hit me all of a sudden (which it often does because I try to block things out) that I just wished my mum was here in times like this. I need her & I feel really cheated as she was only 52 & I wanted her to see my kids grow up etc.

Oh i'm sorry, I didn't mean to make this about me...just wanted to let you know your not alone, I know how you feel & we just need to hang in there & get through this xx