I wanted to share my story with everyone...
I have always been afraid of throwing up since I was a little girl. But I don't remember obsessing over it like I do as an adult. Growing up I always let my fear of throwing up get the best of me. If someone said, oh i feel sick INSTANTLY i felt sick.. I would feel nauseated going into stores for the fear that I would get sick in the store. But really I think the worse of it came when I was 20 years old, and caught a HORRIBLE HORRIBLE stomach bug. Prior to that I had not thrown up since I was 11. This stomach bug woke me up at 5am, and I was gagging. For the rest of the day I was sick as a dog, and had to travel in a car with my family because we were moving from Florida to Oregon. And we were only in Texas!I
I am 28 now, and have no thrown up since. I have even been sick as a dog with a flu bug, and been pregnant.
What scares me the MOST is the unknown. I don't want to feel just fine before I go to sleep, and then be woken up all of a sudden to gagging, and having to run to the bathroom. I'd rather it happen while i'm wide awake so I can control it. Make sense?
Having a child makes this fear even worse because your always afraid that your child is going to get sick & give it to you. Or vise versa
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Right now I feel panicked because a roommate came home today after being gone since Sunday night and told me he missed work yesterday because he was just throwing up all day. Instantly I wanted to cry... I am scared that my daughter will get it now, and me and my husband. I try and try to express how this makes me feel to my husband but he does not understand. And I know it frustrates him to hear any of it. He just says " don't freak out until it happens"... Yeeeeeeah.
I hope I can find someone that understands. I really want to get help for this but I don't even know where to turn to.