I can't belive I found a place that has people just like me... its refreshing to know and I guess there really is comfort in numbers... I hate this feeling so much... I was doing so well with some mild panick attacks here and there but haven't really had to take my xanax... until today when I got a call from my friend/neighbor who advised me she just picked her son up b/c he V* 2x at school... I've been in a tizy since... I did ok for a little bit, but I skipped lunch and then took a xanax so I could eat something... I was feeling light-headed... I don't know how I'm going to get through another season... Last winter both of my kids had the bug 4x! I felt such despair after getting that call today... and feel myself sinking into depression again... I'm already maxed out on my anti depressant... *sigh* I wish there was a cure for this phobia... and I pray with all my heart neither of my kids get this fear...