im very new to this site, and im getting there. my names kirsty and im 15 years old. ive been told by people at anxiety.uk that i have emetophobia, as far as i iknow im not afraid of being sick, i havnt been in over two years. But im petrified of anybody being sick. Ive had this since i was 3. To say it controlls my life is an understatment, if i see, hear, smell sick. i have an intense panick attack. i have panick attacks when people cough and when people say they feel ill and have a belly ache. and its not like my panick attacks are little, there massive, i have more then enough symptoms to know that there panick attacks, i like freeze, i cry, i shake, i break out into a sweat, my legs and arms tingle, i have asmtha so as my breathing increses alot my chest goes tight, and i go dizzy. they usally last until im free from the situation. they have lasted for over 20 hours before. theyve got so bad that i often have panick attacks for other silly things like im petrified of ghosts. after i have a panick attack i feel so low and emotionally drained that i just want to curl up in a ball. having this has led me to be in deep depression. Non of my friend understand, and some of them purposly make gagging noises in front of me. to see how i react. having this has led me to be scared of the following, public toilets, i cant step foot in a hosptal, swimming pools, theme parks, pubs/clubs, resturants, school. Although i am in my last year of school ive been having ALOT more panick attacks, people exxagerate and say they feel sick and ill. i know they cant help it. I hate it how people apoligise to me for being ill; it makes me feel like rubbish. ive never met anybody with my phobia, i find everday challeging.
I have been to councilling and as tramatic as that was it didnt work. When i have a panick attack in front of people its so humiliating, and it makes it worst when people are staring at you. i feel like a metnal patient.
i dont brag about having this phobia so when people find out it shocks them and they ask alot of questions, i dont mind answering them but its never easy because its not like a phobia of spiders.
i go to collage in 8 months and im petrified. having this phobia limits on so much i can do. i hate feeling like a freak. i always have anxeity im my stomache. always. its not comfterble.
i hope by joining this site people who have the same thing as me can talk to me, im thinking about starting a blog, but im not sure im ready to tell people who dont understand just yet.
if your reading this your probaly bored so ill leave it there, i could go on forever, thankyou for taking the time to read this, and i hope you can get back to me.
kirsty