I thought I had emet beat. I really did. A year ago, I was essentially a shut in. I didn't go anywhere unless it was necessary. My son and I stayed home almost all the time.
Last spring, I started to get some control over it. Mind over matter, I guess. I enrolled back in school to finish my Bachelors... and although it was scary, I enrolled my son in daycare (one of my very biggest fears.)
Since my son started daycare, he has had cold after cold, ear infection after ear infection, and I have been able to take care of him just fine. He even V once from coughing a lot with a cold, and it didn't scare me at all.
Then today on the way home from daycare, he started to V. A lot. And I panicked. I was shaking crying. I called my mom and begged her to leave work and meet me at the house. Thankfully, she did. I was able to get my son inside and undressed, and clean up some of my car, but since then I have pretty much just checked out. It is still happening, but my mom is taking care of him.
I am hiding in the basement. Shaking, crying, and feeling sick myself. I know it is probably just nerves, but I just can't help but think that I have been exposed and on top of that I feel like the worst mother on the planet. All he wants is me, and my poor mom is taking care of him because I can't.
I don't know what I am looking for by posting this, I am just freaking out and I want to feel better. Help me.