Re: I'm through with this shit... I can't take it.
I feel for you too, over the summer I honestly just didn't want to exist anymore my fear was so bad. But it WILL pass. However, nobody can pull you out of this but yourself, maybe with the help of a medical professional, but you have to WANT to fight. It doesn't just magically get better. I don't tell you this to be harsh, but because I was there. I'm 21 and when I was your age I turned to drugs to "fix" myself. Many, many horrible drugs that could have killed me and did kill a few of my former friends and have permanently screwed up some of their lives. They are not the answer. It might make you feel better while you're on them, but ultimately you'll feel so much worse about yourself and your life. There never will be a time when self destruction won't hurt you or others around you, even more than emet is hurting you. I'm now in college with an amazing gpa, great friends, and a future that will hopefully be amazing. Yes, emet is still present, but there is a light.
So fight, even if you don't see the light! Because if you keep fighting, and don't try and take the self destructive drug route, there WILL eventually be a light. And you will overcome it. I completely believe that you can, because if you had completely given up on yourself you wouldn't be here talking to us.
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